sheesh.. let me make it known to the world.just because i choose NOT to slog my arse and work the hell outta myself does NOT mean i rot. in fact i've grown much more appreciative of the fact that im still able to wake up in the morning, still able to see the sunlight of the fact that i can still breathe and live!! im very much thankful i dun have to work - face people all the time _ and i suppose this is the odd facade of netty; as much as i like to be surrounded by throngs of people, i do fancy a peace of mind too. like i could just stay at home and just be with myself. and im getting good at that. subjective, i know; some people might just scorn at the supposed pathetic state of the diva. but well, THEY are the ones who arent at peace with themselves so screw them. im happy thank you very much.

i was saying like i could just stay at home all day and not get bored of myself. cos my mind's always generating things to do man. things i nvr got to do in the past where life was back to back action in front of textbooks and notes and perhaps things i will nvr get to do in the future where life would be... uh.. let's see.. back to back action in front of textbooks and notes. so yeah, this is my time so just let me be. ok? i could walk or cycle about my neighbourhood or dance to mtv blasted on my tv (like that time when me and alya shared a banana and she seemingly got drunk and boogied to gorillaz's feel good. haha. with her pampers all.. cute la she) or i could suddenly get the urge to bake a cake after watching nigella's bite. or i could decide to town or whatever. im happy. and my parents aint complaining. so whatever.

just caught the eternal sunshine of the spotless mind. beautiful story_ if only i wasnt INTERRUPTED many a times, alya, the phone calls, the fax machines, bleagh_ anyways it set me thinking what if, you know, you had a bit of your memory erased for fear of the future; so that you would have a seemingly happier future. or you could erase tt bit of your past tt you wished din hapen or erase someone you wished you hadnt met at all. well i guess that will just be.. i duno.. sheer hopefulness. because deep down, you're just running away from the unknown; albeit the fear of the unknown. apprehensiveness. fear has always been a part of man's life, discuss. oh i did tear abit watching that despite of myself. hah.

and i gota go collect my results slip from muhammadiyah. guess i am gona enrol myself into the islamic college of muhammadiyah (r muhammadiyah islamic college) to get a diploma in religious study and i'm really really keen in deepening my knowledge in MY religion and get closer to my Maker. jazzakallah. so hopefully i can get a place there and be adapted there yeah. it's a friday-saturday-sunday thing so yeah. and this of course is on top of getting my admission to a university in singapore. hopefully i get to do something in the u that i just really wana do and not be stuck doing smthg i rather not. amin. (dun you dare say i stil duno what i wana do with my life. i do. i just rather not put it so openly to the whole wide world. well at least not yet)

la la la tam plonk. hee. im closing in on this post already.

wisdom of my day: if you judge people, you wont have time to love them - mother theresa