adidas has finally passed on. been lying to myself that that bulge on the side of his tummy will fade away, somehow. truth is, it was living on borrowed time. and this may sound weird but

i
am
heartbroken

it has been with me for a year or so; sheesh i remember removing those green living thingy stuck like suction on it when daddy bought them last year.
**it came in as part of a trio, the other two soon died, they were a-di-das**
' to help me release stress' i thought he told me and it has always been there; in good and bad and really bad waters, i talk to it, i vent my anger on it, i'm amazed by it, i understood fish biology with it. even emah commented it would prolly die looking at me studying.. hee, guess that didnt kill adidas. i still wonder what killed it.

no offense to cleo, but who will see me through my years in university now that adidas is gone ?

gee whiz

i thought giving adidas a watery funeral like most pet fish just wouldnt be : enough.
brutally flushed down the toilet bowl.
i just cant bring myself to . . . flush it down.
so i buried it amongst the intricate roots of samantha, the plant seated just outside my room, on my balcony. call me neurotic / idiotic / insane /gila whatever you want.

deep breathe.

thank you adidas.