she had an almost brilliant day

she attended class AND stayed vigilant to her upmost best
she finally met up for a long due shopping trip in town
she daniel ong managed to see how goodlooking daniel ong is
she got herself new pair of shoes
she ate her muchcraved fishballs and currypuff for lunch
she helped jazz picked some good accessories for class tomorrow
she got him his favorite chocolate takadog

she was going to meet him
she even got the top her sister wanted
she was going to meet him after so long

going to

she knew her gut feeling was right
she called his cellphone endlessly
she eventually dialled up his home

she felt numb

she sometimes hates it when she's right

she cried
she had her girlfriends chatting with her on her way home
she thanks them for saying it wasnt diva-ish to dry on the bus, it aint pretty
she loves them for listening

she just wants silence
she closed her eyes

she took the long walk home
she knows that might help

she felt anger and disappointment evaporating off her
she forgot all the good things that happened to her the day

how human can she be

she doesnt blame him
she understands he had two tests today
she is aware he didnt have his sleep
she knows he had to wait for her and thus fell asleep
she doesnt blame him
she loves him

she just wishes she wasnt so numb