in facilitating others,
i must first begin with myself
self facilitation

attending the facil training lye conducted has opened my eyes
*not that they arent already big enough*

all right

if you are familiar with my life thus far
abouts alevels and what nots

i cant say enough of the Trigger - Response vs Reaction concept

everytime there is a Trigger
there has to be a Response

what differs a Response from a Reaction
is the fact that
time is taken to Pause

in that short span of time
one draws out the possible ways of reacting towards that Trigger

and upon finally reaching to an informed decision
it's called a Choice

and with that
Response follows suit in accordance to the Choice

there is no right or wrong Choice

simply because the Choice is mine
and mine alone
and thus i am committed to being responsible for whatever Choice i make

all this said

it boils down to the level of awareness one has

define awareness i hear you ask?

it has a lot to do with realising the thoughts feelings and even physical sensations that run through you in that experience

now before i begin sounding like a freaking cult-ish textbook

think about it

what am i feeling at this moment in time?
i am feeling excited to share my knowledge yet apprehensive that i may relay incorrectly

what are you feeling at this moment in time?
confused/accepting/uh whatever netty
did you realise that your finger has been scrolling down this page the entire time?
yes/no/maybe
and that possibly at the back of your mind, you're going :
netty has gone nuts

and tt's fine with me

just be aware
that whatever it -your experience- may be
rejoice
it is entirely exclusively yours

ready to take that up one notch?

take a minute to pause and reflect
so what

what does this experience mean to me?
i am always ever ready to share my knowledge yet there always seem to be something sometimes holding me back

how does this affect me in the way i function and do things ?
yes, sometimes there is always this voice urging me on and on to do whatever and it is taking that one final plunge. that one giant leap. that one last straw. and i halt and go wait a minute. is this what i want really?

does that work for me?
no, unfortunately not always cos sometimes i regret not sharing my information. missing my boat. missing the opportunity to enlighten another person's life while making mine better.

now that i am aware that i am of such behavior, how do i think it will affect me in the future?
because i am (unconsciously or not) conscious of what i say or do when it comes to sharing my knowledge, my experience, my thoughts and feelings, some of my knowledge of whatever sort it may be, might not be shared
and Lord, one of the best things in life is the sharing of knowledge

Action! now i know i am like that, fully aware and wham at my face that i am not entirely comfortable with it, what's an action that i am willing to take next?
i will be consciously aware that i am doing that possibly uneccesary pause in my bid to share, put it aside and just share as much as i can

and have i done it ?
yes!

are you aware that I have brought you through the experiential learning cycle?

remember, whether or not you are susceptible to this
train of thought
point of view
notion
concept
idea

the Choice is entirely yours and exclusively yours only.

:)