i
hate
how
i
am
not
honest
with
myself
sometimes

do
you
also
do
those
things

do
you
also
say
those
things

only
wishing
to
make
yourself
feel
better

indeed
the
worst
is
to
delude
oneself

and
break
one's
own
promise

i didnt wake up to a jog
i didnt complete my aerobics workout
i didnt clear my room up

i looked into the mirror
and felt a million daggers stabbing at me

i opened my wardrobe this morning
and took another forever to dress up

i wished i had nicer clothes to wear
i wished i had newer shoes to put on
i wished i didnt have the bad-tudung-daySSSSS curse

i wished i was beautiful

i wished today wasnt a monday
i wished i dont have a farked-up report to do
i wished it wasnt as non-existent as it is right now

i wonder what's wrong with me