daddy's critique last night was no longer about the technicalities of driving.

no disapproving 'tsktsktsk'.
no voice slightly raised.
no disgruntlings of any sorts.

just laughs
and the pat on my head.

it was on the issue of enjoying the drive.
not feeling that constant pressure
not having the inevitable body aches.

i took a breather
and amazingly, i leaned back.

sure, was jittery when mr honda integra waited
as i attempted to park my ride in vain

but i parked damn nice into gramma's warped porch, ok.

while that serves to imply that i can drive, yay,
perhaps, there are other areas in my life where i have been..

both too pressured & pressuring.

i get damn jittery when i feel intimidated
and subsequently i seemingly allow things to get outta hand.

i am able to get things done
when i put my heart & prayers into things.

heck, im even able to let go & enjoy the process of getting it done.

indeed, in that car with my daddy last night,

i learnt that

i can let go my worries,
trust myself a little bit more
& love myself for the every bit that i am.

and with that, i am empowered :)
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it was on the issue of enjoying life
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you know i love waking up to the buzzing
& the you smiling back at me
telling me you need me as much as i need you
& i've got you cos you've got me too

iloveyou.