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yesterday
us three met up

as crazy as can be
of melting ice on the table
and pekak conversations
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i have to be honest
i have been silently sighing

i dont mean to sound draggy
or whiny or un-syukur-ing or what lah

i am just dreading it
possibly it could be it, maybe it is it

and guess what?
sem's just been two weeks
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gosh, it feels like forever
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and, no
pls dont blame tuition

that is not (entirely) it
therefore, to (wholly) blame it

that is not fair
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my days are filled

a normally happy me
(cos i like having things to do)
am actually dreading my days

IT SUCKS
TO HAVE TO PENCIL BABYBOO
INTO MY WARPED SCHEDULE

dak said
'if i was him, i would have long dumped you'

then, i had laughed and replied
'because im worth it'

but of late, thoughts have been
'if i was him, i would have long dumped me'

fortunately, he still is there
lending that comforting voice of hope
at the end of my crazy day (s)

so you see
i am blessed
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revisions to the timetable
still being made even now
are simply NOT helping
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today
resumed readings
where i sanely could

in truth i know i am scared
thus i have been in slow motion
as if that would help in easing

the impending doom
the daunting thought

because after this,
when it ends,
my 17 years studying

what happens next?
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