today will officially be the final morning
that im gonna be home alone

routine had been waking up damn early
just to sort things out at home
before i set out doing my things

and lug around all my barangs everywhere i go

just to
1. safe time
2. the hassle of having to disarm the alarm each time i unlock the door

the truth is

it is very the penat to keep doing this

if only i can toughen up

and sleep home alone

heh

til THAT happens
_

yesterday's events

was nice & simple
though i cant really be much help
i hope the ear i lent was good enough
_

maghrib prayers at ghufran
just couldnt help the tears from falling

things were getting a little bit overwhelming

my accumulation of sins thus far
forgetting to be thankful

feeling like i'd just lost my centre of gravity

i was just too weary
i broke down

and in my own solitude
i prayed for my own sanity
_

sometimes, i admit
i expect so much out of myself

that even mum, miles away, could sense it
and i hate finding out there's only so much i can do
_

i finally drove a friend (in this case, friends)
like that may be pathetic

but shut up okay? :)