babyboo, i know.
i said it before and i'll say it again.

as much as im upset, i am happy for you.
and i truly want you to go.
because it's what's good

i know
two weeks plusplus isnt forever
is it?

dont blame me for my tears
my suffocating anxiety
those scary thoughts & blasphemous what-ifs

the time's not here yet.
brunei is not here yet.

and until it's here

i dont want to think about it.
yet.