i am, and have been for the longest time, mentally unsound. emotionally numb, especially with my week-long overdue essay AND another one absolutely shining brightly in all of its non-existence. this by far, has been my most trying, farkimallalone semester. and my final. and as much as i will for it to end, i wish i could restart it. yet all i do is lament lament lament.

each time i get psyched up with caffeine to do anything, i get stiffed & stumped with a gabazillion questions that leaves me with one choice. i give up. i do crazy things like jumping into a cab for ten bucks worth to school only to spend the whole afternoon online. or switch on the lappie to watch the telly behind it. no one else to blame but myself, i am aware. and indifferent.